...a giant leap

I spent a lot of time in the past year thinking about the direction I would like my new life to take. My "education" was not what I wanted it to be, and I find myself doing just what I had hoped to avoid by getting it. I wake up every morning to go to a job for the single reason of making money. I feel no attachment to the job; I find the actual work to be a waste of what resources remain on the planet. While I have no desire to remain there, what else am I to do? Our great society has seen fit to put a value on everything, the food we eat, the shelter we reside in, even our very health. If we do not find a way to match that value, our lives are essential forfeit. I do agree that everyone needs to contribute to society, but the real question is what value to you assign our contributions? The backbones of our society, teachers, firefighters, store workers, have some of the lowest paying jobs. If all the essentials of life have a value, and we associate value to peoples contributions to offset this, then why do the necessary jobs have such a low value? Until we realize the true value of everything we have, our society will never improve its conditions, no matter how advanced or bright we think we are.

One small step...

I'm a recent college graduate, receiving my Master's degree in Computer Science, and find that the path I set on is not quite what I expected. There are several factors which I believe contributed to this, most of them probably my own fault. As the title of this blog implies, I've set myself on a journey to find what I truly want out of life. Here I will chronicle my discoveries and failures as I work towards pax aeterna.

Stepping through the portal

He cautiously pushed the door open with the tips of his fingertips. A faint light shone through the crack, revealing a slice of his face as he peered through it. He had heard of this door from others; how it could bring answers, or even more questions. Was this really what he wanted to do? He craved answers, but everything was so confusing right now that he didn't think he needed anymore questions. The air coming through the crack was cold, but fresh, surrounding his breath with a blanket of condensation. With a small chuckle, he moved closer to the door, pushing it open a little further. This was something, new, different. It was time to change things, to take a new path. With one final breath, he pushed open the door and stepped through.

And so began his Expiscor ex iter itineris

And so began my journey of discovery